I just had a dream that me and my ex-gf were having it really out and i was leaving her and she was suing me and i was counter suing her and she was cutting herself and the song "Hate Me" by Blue October kept getting louder and louder in my brain until I was actually singing... no yelling the words to her for all she had done to hurt me with her anger, her cursing, her making her son cry, for pretending to be a loving caring woman when i first met her and now this and the song got so loud i actually woke up and the song was still playing in my damn brain. ARRRRGGGH!
I thought I was over all of this and now I am sent this bad dream. That's totally the opposite of how it happened when i left her. There was nothing thrown or broken, no curse words, no yelling, just her saying (once her son was crying) "I hate you". And her father came over and even offered to help get my stuff out, since I was on a two hour time limit to 'get the hell out of my house" deal.
I'm sorry to write such painful stuff but this one had me in the kitchen crying while smoking a cigarette. Why these flashback and misconstrued dreams of what did not take place. I don't know. Its like she sent the dream using wicca to bind and hurt me in my sleep. Its just to disturbing to go further into the graphic details of the whole dream but the song is still playing in my head and now i have to download it to hear all the words.
I'm sorry if I upset anybody, It's just a dream right?
Sad and anxious,
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