No more drinking !!!

I'm saying NO to Dionysis to drinking alcoholic beverages anymore. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired of the after-affects of drinking, particularly binge drinking. It reduces my athletic abilities, my sense of balance (necessary for bmx) and getting depressed and angry for no reason. Time to put the beer can down and have a coke instead.

I've finally gotten angry enough with myself to stop this nonsense and useless expensive exploitation of my fixed income. The occasional pack of cigarettes I can deal with and I will work on that a little later, first I need to save myself from the alcohol god and free myself for better things like exercising and reducing apathy which comes usually the first few days after a drinking binge. There are better ways to stay occupied and not numb my mind.

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August 1st 2007. I had a miracle happen today. I was driving back from my parents house and had a trigger, I drove up to the quick stop grocery (where all the cheapest beer in town can be found) and drove in. I was about to get out of my car when my inner voice said to me don't do it, its just plain stupid to ruin what recovery you have started. So I drove out of there and made it home. The trigger was the place itself a haven for alcoholics and the like. I passed the test, my first test. There will be many more tests to come. Quitting alcohol doesn't happen overnight and there are times when (us alcoholics) use again, but that's not the end of the story. I plan to put an exclamation point on my calendar for every day I do not drink any beer. Then I can see how far I'm progressing and after maybe perhaps a month of not drinking I can rest easier and see the red flags pop up when I have a craving and reward myself for not drinking by going to Taco Bell or MCD's for a burger or a burrito.
YEAH for me!